baby #2

8/30/2010 finally got the nerve to call the doctor's office to make an appt for a frozen transfer.  upon calling i found out that we had not paid our storage fee for two years.  i freaked out because i thought our embryos had been destroyed.  luckily they had not.  we were quite confused because we knew we had paid last year.  apparently we have seaman stored and that is what they credited our payment toward.  we had no clue.  terry went up to pay the storage fee.  i waited for the appt girl to call me back.  and waited.  and waited.  stepped into the office next door and heard my phone ringing. ran back.  missed the call.  called immediately back.  no answer.  left work at 4 without making an appt.  all the emotions and fear of this process set in ever so quickly. 

8/31/2010 first phone call of the day is from CORM.  made the appt for sept. 14.  paperwork has been emailed.  are we really doing this again?!?!  here we go.

9/14/2010 met with Dr. Schnell. the first thing she asked when she walked into the room was to see a picture of bella. she was very excited to see us and find out about our sweet girl. the appt was very informative and she let us know that things are going to move pretty quickly and that we will be going pretty much the same route as we did with bella. one change.... no progesterone shots. i'll still be getting plenty of progesterone just not from a shot. now we wait for my cycle to start. tmi... oh well.

10/11/2010 cycle starts and i call in to dr. s' office to find out the next step. i was in an inservice meeting when they called me back and i had to run outside to take the call because we are keeping this very quiet this time.

10/ /2010 back to CORM for a test transfer and hystosonogram. have to make sure the uterine lining looks good and make sure they can get our little embryo's back where they belong. funny side note, well funny now, not then..... the nurse said, "he will be right in." i FROZE. i explained to her i had no idea i was seeing the new male doctor. and that i had never seen a male doctor in that capacity before. i seriously almost freaked out. stupid, i know. i calmed down, he came in and did the test transfer and he was out of there. he did come in and meet me before the procedure but it was still a little weird for me.... now i start prometrium and estrodial for 10 days and wait for the next cycle.

10/19/2010 cycle starts.

10/29/2010 accupuncture.  ahhhhhhh.  i love it.

11/1/2010 appointment to have an ultrasound to check my lining which was 9cm and my estrogen which was about 748. everything looks great and we are moving forward.

11/8/2010 frozen embryo transfer at 7:30 am.  transfer went well.  4 embryos were put back.  1 looked perfect, 1 looked excellent, and 2 were pretty pitiful but we gave them a fighting chance.  i had acupuncture before and after the transfer.  now starts the hard part.  i have three days of home rest and 2 weeks worth of waiting for the pregnancy test.  i'm a crazy hormonal mess.  seriously.  bella spent 3 nights with my parents so we wouldn't have to worry about her.  she didn't seem phased by it at all.

11/10/2010  bella came home this afternoon and we were so excited to see her and have her as a distraction.  i think she is glad to be home too!!  I go back to work tomorrow. I need that distraction as well.

11/22/10  today we had a POSITIVE pregnancy test.  WOOHOO!!  my hcg is 1,325 which is quite high.  I go in for more blood work on wednesday morning just to be safe but I would say I'm pretty pregnant.  my hcg was 487 with bella on pregnancy test day so i suppose there is a chance that there is more than one baby but we won't know for sure until our ultrasound in two weeks.

11/23/10  still very pregnant.  my HCG had gone up over 2,000.

12/6/10  today's ultrasound was bittersweet.  we found out today that we are pregnant with twins.  unfortunately baby "b" does not look very good and probably won't make it.  baby "a" had a heart rate of 115 and is measuring exactly as it should be.  baby "b" has a heart rate of 96 and is measuring 5 days behind.  we met with the nurse practitioner and she did not give us any hope that baby "b" would make it past the next couple of weeks.  we can't help but pray for baby "b" to somehow be a miracle.

12/21/10  we had another ultrasound today.  baby "a" had a heart rate of 176 and looks great.  we got to see and hear it beating this time.  baby "b" was even further behind growth wise (by 2 weeks 1 day) and the heart rate was so sporadic it could not be measured.  it would beat a couple of times, then stop.  it was pretty difficult to see it struggling.  we still pray for baby "b" but understand there is not much hope.  we are so thankful for 1 healthy baby that even moved a little bit for us today.

1/4/11 today i am 10 weeks 6 days.  i had my last appointment at CORM.  forever.  we had another ultrasound today and baby "a" looked perfect.  heart rate was 180.  it was being very still and i asked about why that was happening.  she said it was probably napping just like we do. then all of a sudden it was moving around like crazy.  so cute to see that little baby playing in mommy's belly.  baby "b" no longer has a beating heart.  i couldn't even really make the baby out anymore.  oddly we were kinda relieved that it had passed because watching it struggle was no good at all.  i choose to believe that it is rocking in grammy's arms in heaven.